|Quality: BDRip||Release date: January 1, 2019|
|Keywords: –||Genres: Drama, Music|
|Duration: 90 min||Original title: G R I E F|
Stretch marks. The one thing every pregnant woman including myself has on her mind through out pregnancy. I must have lathered my belly up twice a day every day with atleast 3 different body butters. It wasn’t until the final 2 weeks of my pregnancy with twins that I started to see two lines on my belly. My left mark was because of Lilahs growth and my right side was because of Ava’s. It’s impossible for me to hold Ava because she is in heaven, my stretch marks have become my favorite reminder/proof that she was here. I am the 1 in 4 women who have experienced their child being still born. So instead of the typical Mom dreading the stretch marks on her stomach, I’m the 1 in 4 that touch that stretch mark everyday and remember that my baby was growing. My baby was there. My baby is always with me. Im a twin mommy. She existed. These are the things I now can say when I look in the mirror. This is postpartum after gain and loss. This is a new way to love myself. #threetinyflowers #twinlesstwinmom 4weeks postpartum #csection
How many mommas out there can feel when they ovulate? ??♀️ I never used to be able to but it seems like with each kid I have, the more I notice it. It’s such a distinct feeling. ? Well, today was that day for me and at first I felt it but questioned what the feeling was, and then it hit me! ??♀️ So I messaged a sweet friend of mine and she said “PANAWAY!” ? Why didn’t I think of that!? That’s the oil that SOLD me on essential oils because it worked so well during the unwanted time of the month ? Put some all over my abdomen and things are as good as new ?? throwing this in my purse now to have on hand the rest of the night, just in case it’s needed more! ? . . . . . . . #essentialpath #essentialoils #panaway #ovulation #Timeofthemonth #Unwantedaunt #ovulationcramps #sharkweek #oilstotherescue #organictampons #noharshchemicals #breastfeeding #naturalwellness #kombucha #probiotics #emotionalhealth #mentalhealth #physicalhealth #selflove #selfcare #priorities #younglivingessentialoils #betterlattethannever #yogapants #organic
Happy Saturday, If you are searching for a creative way to display your baby items I encourage you to try a shadow box. __ I am placing a few items that I hold dear to my heart back in shadow boxes to preserve/display it. This is a creative way to display your baby memories. ??? ___ #baileysdash #infantloss #sids #shadowbox #jesusheals #suids #faith #grieftips #monogram #baileynicole #memories #infantloss
Moving into a new year can be difficult when you are grieving. Even though it has gotten easier for me to celebrate the new year, I will never get used to - or ever be ok with - my brother Jamarr not being here. I remember how hard those first few years were without him. I used to feel terrible guilt with each passing year. I felt like I was leaving my brother behind - but not on purpose. I was forced to move forward with the passage of time. Because... so much of this 'grief thing' is beyond our control... hang in there... take time to reflect... take care of yourself... and please don't give up. ?
It’s not often that I can express my emotions through my art. So drawing this was cathartic. Been a rough couple of years. Might develop this sketch and turn it into a finished piece. Blue col-erase pencil on good ol’ printer paper. #sketch #sketchbook #prismacolor #colorpencil #drawing #artistsoninstagram #illustration #workinprogress #wip #forest #forestfire #tubbsfire #loss #creature #hooves #deadtrees #fantasy
There are SO many beautiful & extraordinary things that happen in this life. I pray that my kids walk with their hearts open to whatever God has for them in every single situation & that they recognize when something bigger than themselves is at work (which is almost always if we trust it to be true.) ? For a couple of years now I have heard all about Braden’s friend, Gabe. He would talk about his friend & eventually, when I would hear him laughing (like belly laughing from upstairs) I knew that Gabe was on the other end of the phone. They were put in the same class with the same teacher this year so that helped me to finally get the two of them together outside of school. It was only when I added Gabe’s mom, Kelli, on social media that I saw what their family had walked through, not long before Mabel died. Gabe has a brother, Rayce, who also died- just a year before our girl. We live in a small community & all of this time I didn’t know their family or what they had endured-which took me by surprise. I would have loved to have connected or tried to be a support to them if I would have known. But God’s hand in this story was not about me supporting this family; God’s hand was about arranging a friendship between 2 boys who knew what it was like to live through the death of a sibling, & find laughter together on the other side of it. I remember asking Braden if he knew that Gabe’s brother had died & he said yes. I couldn’t help but sob when I thought of the intimate & personal way that God weaved them together. I told Braden & begged him in that moment never to forget how loved he is by our Maker. Even in the small details of our lives, He is aware of what we need. ? Gabe is a bright light. He is funny & witty & I don’t think it’s an overstatement to say he’s one of our boy’s best friends. We learned recently that Gabe & his family will be moving on January 1st & I won’t lie- I was crushed. But, once again I had the opportunity to remind Braden that God has a perfect plan. So though it is sad, we have to trust that it is right! We wish Gabe & his entire family so much love & peace in this transition. We know they are covered. & they will be missed?
S/O to all my lovely wanderers who have lost someone special. Holidays tend to bring us back to grief after loss, without them we just don’t feel the same. Two years ago my mom gave me this tree pendant that holds some of my dads ashes. And let me tell you!!! I’ve tried and tried to make my own rendition but I always end up defeated and teary eyed. So I am putting it out there to hold myself accountable for this creative dream. I am a sucker for all things nostalgic and meaningful. And I need to create things like this to fuel and feed my heart and soul. What are your thoughts?
And then their were three......Dedicated to the parentless this holiday season. You are not alone ❤️???. #sisters #foreverfriends #missingourparents #strength #wearefamily #sisterday
We have a rare mid-weekend post about in @disney #marypoppinsreturns See link in our profile:
Today has been pretty emotional for me. Today the memory of a life cut short is first and foremost on my mind along with the love I send to his family, my family. Then I have popped on and off of fb several times today and seen the most amazing and heartbreaking stories of this past year. Stories of courage, hope, laughter, grief, sadness, etc. My friends please know I love you all and I am here if you need me. I love laughing and cutting up with you all but I am also here if you need me. To me 2018 was the best year I have had in at least 5 years. It was a year of coming back to life. I found something that finally makes me feel better, took some trash out of my life and found my self worth again. In 2019 I will continue with what I started in this past year.I will no longer tolerate anything less than I deserve and I will give my all to helping others in anyway I can. I am so very thankful for all my family and friends and wish life's blessings to all of you! Be you. The you I already love. Be kind. Be happy. I am thankful that I will be kissing my guy that I have been kissing since 10th grade. Never settle in your relationships, don't miss out on what you deserve by entertaining shitty people. Be good to yourselves. Much love and happiness to you all. My resolution is to continue to be good to myself and help others. Happy New Year!
Things I did in 2018: Got more sleep Went running Turned 40 Went to London and Mallorca and stayed in a tent in Fife Got a new kitchen Tidied up a lot Said “be careful” a lot Loved fiercely Remembered proudly Missed terribly Hope continues to grow. Joy continues to peek through the clouds of grief. Here’s to a bright and love-filled 2019 for us all ?✨2️⃣0️⃣1️⃣9️⃣? #babyloss #childloss #bereavedmother #themaeveffect #2018
???FOLLOW @theonenesssolution ?????? #scorpiomoon #venusinscorpio ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ • • • <?When the Moon is in Scorpio??? ?Intensity is what the Moon in Scorpio is all about. Whether it's passion, elation, sorrow, or desire, emotions are felt on a deeply personal level. We are motivated by the desire to get to the bottom of things, and we instinctively read between the lines. Superficiality won't work for us now. The Moon in Scorpio urges us to uncover our own power, and it's an excellent time to rid ourselves of old fears and limiting habits. It can be an intimate and passionate time. Avoid manipulative tactics, brooding, and suspiciousness. ?The Moon in Scorpio generally favors the following activities: Taxes, accounting, intimacy issues, psychological examinations, research, self-examination, getting rid of old things.▪️▪️▪️ ?When the Moon is in Scorpio??? ?Sex, power, and money are compelling aphrodisiacs now. Secrets, taboos, and mysteries appeal to a deep instinctive yearning. Learning what makes people tick turns you on. Your instinctive orientation at this time is toward getting down to brass tacks and starting over from scratch - healing comes from destroying the roots of a disturbance.> ✨LEARN MORE ABOUT THE LUNAR CYCLE! VIA: ? https://cafeastrology.com/whenthemoonisin.html ? +++ ? https://cafeastrology.com/articles/mooninsigns.html ▪️▪️▪️ ??? @boundariesarebeautiful @selfcareissacred @suitestpee ??? #selfcareissacred #scorpio #watersign #newyearnewme #mooninscorpio
2018..What a freaking year. Here is Instagram's idea of my best 9 photos from the year based on likes from people I know (and some that I don't!), so I have added a few more of my faves from the year. It really has been a true emotional, mental and physical challenge from start to finish, in so many ways. I've loved more than I ever thought possible and experienced grief beyond anything I could have comprehended, both of which have encouraged me to look forward with a new found focus on self-love and being mindful of what I need in my life to simply be happy. 2019, I can't wait to see what you have in store for us! Happy New Year ☺️?? #newyear2018 #hello2019 #weddingday #birthday #whatayear #promotion #hendo #honeymoon #bali #flores #labuanbajo #komodoisland #rincaisland #indonesia #budapest #hungary #happy #wellnessmyway #mindfulness #instadaily
Huge Happy New Year everyone, I hope 2019 brings you all good health, happiness and Planes! ✈️ ?✈️ Especially thinking about my Dad tonight as we go into another year without him x ✈️ ✈️ ✈️ #avgeek #miniavgeek #planespotting #familyhobby #beginners #huawei #mumpose #mum #aviation_lovers #ig_aviation_club #instaaviation #instagramaviation #pilot #pilotlife #flying #aviation #newyear #aviationselfie #photography #wales
A year of vulnerabilities. Taking masks of expectation off to show up raw. Experiences that felt like sand paper & choices made from clarity that made me crumble. (Truth is funny like that.) A year of heart-breaking-wide-open. And crappy catastrophic collapsing. A year of relationships & values. Romance, sexual healing, & intimacy. There were many not good enoughs & many too good, spirit-on-fire, can’t-live-withouts. Some hanging on to just survive because so. much. loss. Grief & grieving along with heavy exhaust. And some this-is-what-I-was-made-for-melting. Holy fuck, this is next level loving. Psychedelics & psychic expansion. Superpowers elevated. A decade of plant-based… broken. Full on catharsis. Fast-food, marijuana, & mayhem. This year was dedicated to living for myself because do I REALLY have anybody else. Sobbing in bathtubs & altitude adjustments. This year was full of headaches & physical fitness elevation. For the soul cleanse. Descend, shed, & transcend. For tattoos, the blues (along with a few other hues), & bad news. For questioning everything. For the peace found in the pussy. Shit, the whole year was for the pussy. Goddess felt disappointed, furious & focused. It was aaaaall for the “fuck it”. 2018 was feral & poetic. Soul-fuckingly painful & brilliantly progressive. It was dark but it was all light-work. #madeit ??
This time #lastyear we all #celebrated the coming of #2018 as we had planned a big #project during #2017 with a #fairytale ending ......#almost ? In our worst #nightmares we could never of known what was ahead of us. #2018 played us a #cruel hand and we are glad to see the back of #thisyear ? Never trust #life ? #griefjourney #beforeandafter #outtheresomewhere #Teamwilkins #adam #adammw #foradam #lifechanging ?❤
Happy New Year to all of you guys!!!! Daddy is with Edward and other lovely parents when mammy is taking a little break and sleeping it off! Enjoy your night everyone wherever you are ?❤️? you’re the best @fillario1 now I can sleep well xxx . . .. . . . . . #proudmom #myson #twinloss #skinonskincongas #newyearseve #husband #pregnancy #pregnant #nicu #impregnant #bump #surprise #daybyday #feetup #pregnancyannouncement #pregnantbelly #babyloss #pregnancyphotography #pregnancylife #polishgirl #polka #lovepoland #lindowing #29weekspregnant #loss #wings #littleangel #babyangel #mamalovesyou
If your year was hard but you made it through, give yourself credit because that's huge! #emotionalwellbeing #lifeisntperfect #andthatsok #yourenotalone #crystallakeil #mchenrycountyliving #reproductivementalhealth #inferility #adoption #loss #newyear #newbeinnings #freshstart
There is so much pressure associated with the New Year – we mark our successes or focus on failures from the previous year and establish our resolutions for the next. This, coupled with the fact that our culture is constantly sending us the message to be our best selves and pursue our dreams, can be paralyzing, especially for those of us who are grieving. Claim this truth: we live in moments, not years. You being present in each moment, whether it’s happy, sad, peaceful, chaotic, etc., is a gift, opens you to growth, and is absolutely and beautifully enough. Sending love and gratitude for your presence in each moment today, in the new year, and always. #sheclimbsmountains #bepresent #liveinthemoment #griefsupport #mothers #daughters #motherlessdaughters #motherlessmothers #twincitiesmotherlessdaughters #motherloss #twincities #mnnonprofit #community #gratitude