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Quality: HDRip | Release date: July 6, 2018 |
Keywords: – | Genres: Drama, Comedy |
Duration: 117 min | Original title: 我不是药神 |
#motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
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Today, Day 266 Month End April is coming to an end therefore I can only think of one thing: Sunday, May 13, 2018 Although I’ve been a mother since 1995 I’ve never been a fan of Mother’s Day. It is a not so gentle reminder of me choosing to have a child with the wrong man...but his loss. My mother on the other hand loved this day. It was her moment to be showered with gifts. I remember her being pissed when I stopped celebrating it... that was funny. She wanted her gift and me not celebrating “holidays” (pagan) messed up her mojo. Mama - I would give anything to see a smile on your face, to hug you, to hear your voice... those things I took for granted that I thought I would have always and forever. It’s gonna be rough seeing the 1001 mama posts. Hell it’s rough on regular days let alone a plethora of them. I’ll probably stay in my little hole for a few days, weeks, or this month well at least until I think it’s all clear. Who am I kidding?!?! It’s never really clear. I’ll always envy those with a living mother and I’ll always understand & sympathize with motherless children. Photo: Mothers Day 2016 - our last outing. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
This really does describe my mama! ??? #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
#motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
most days it’s crying & breaking down ? #imissmymama
#onthisday #about2yearsago This shirt you told me not to wear. You’d be so disappointed in my #kish2k18 attire. #movingon Today, Day 312 Memories All I have are memories... How depressing is that?!?! It’s not a day that goes by that I don’t check Facebook as if your gonna comment from heaven... I will admit the on this day is the best thing, the comments the likes from you still warm my heart... Man, my reality no you ever again. Memories, only memories... Although to the world it may seem like you never existed I’ll never let your comforting spirit die. All the “remember when” moments or Grandma would be like... Can you come back if only for a second??? I need like really need to talk to you about so many things I probably cried nonstop the last 12 hours... I’ve cried for you for 311 days. I can’t believe my body is able to produce so many tears. It’s like I’m facing so much since you left... we’re facing so much. We all miss you! This week no you no him... I can’t deal. Loss is tough. #loss ? #grief I will cherish every moment every second with those I love... you just never know. Any given moment could be the last time literally any given moment, now may be the last. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 319 Selfie Day It’s not much to say... I miss my mom. I’m aggravated, wish I could talk to her about my frustration but I can’t... #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 282 You gonna answer that? I was never really this person my mother was one of the closest people to me... then the 2016 shift came... we spent less and less time together & I spent more and more time with my friends. As a single teen mom I really poured my life into my son... running the streets wasn’t really an option for me. I never wanted him to go without or suffer cause he only had me. I wanted to give him my same upbringing & my parents gave me everything I asked for except a Geo Tracker oh and a Spelman education. I was so mad!! Anyway, I was all about him & my money. Period! It felt really good to finally start to do things for myself. I swear #AllSummer16 was thee absolute best... from going to every event to leaving the country for the first time. Yet, what I didn’t know were my days with my mom were numbered... time, time I can’t get back. I’m not sure what I would have done differently but each day I’m faced with this regret... to get one more phone call... a visit... anything. I know everybody may not have a bestie in their mom, but still... make amends, cherish her. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 295 Her fav word shit! To hear my mama say shhhhhiiiiiiitttttt one mo time!!! ????? ?????? Look at Dot with the infamous #bathroomselfie I miss her... but... anyway... Shout out to all my peeps that have supported me financially as well as mentally during these last 7 months and 22 days of real job unemployment!!!!! Who got my dinner???? Where we watching the game at???? #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
? I repeat... NO time limit! #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
Today, Day 281 Reruns Ma - Yesterday the balloon release was emotional but very nice... now time to start planning the next Dot event. I love how my sister and our children were able to come together as a unit and celebrate | honor your life. You’re a missing link but we’re keeping you alive in our hearts... even Bella at 2 years old still talks about you. She asked me a few weeks ago why did you have to die... how I wished I had the answer for that one. I just miss you so... Today I wanted to call you & talk to you but I’m just listening to your voice in my head telling me to pray, let it go & that you’ve done all you can do Tikisha... My entire being yearns for you... your voice, your touch, your gross cigarette smell. I miss those years of 880 daily conversations about absolutely nothing... me saying Ma you said that already, the conversations that became to be called reruns. Tiffani and I have so many reruns we wish we could talk to you about, some stuff is just for a mother... nobody can fill that void. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
It's tough to make a trade between law and humanity #dyingtosurvive
my truth ...facts ?...love my mama ? #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel
Today, Day 310 Pieces of Me Simply glad I’m finding pieces of me... old pieces and new pieces... slowly (re)gaining my strength to live. Learning to love those things I once loved all over again and learning to let go of those things I loved | love that don’t better me. This is a costly but required transition... it’s free to me well freeing but to those being left behind my presence will be missed... losing me will be felt by you... hold on to the memories & contemplate where it all changed | went wrong... but my happiness is priceless and happiness is my only goal in my life after her death journey. I can no longer settle mediocrity = low quality... on any level especially when I’m used to only the best on all levels. I was raised that way and my mother would expect me to have nothing but the best... the best man, the best friends, the best life and a few material perks. I am looking forward to new beginnings and happy endings... only the real survive. Pushing through life! #newkishwhodis #kish2k18 #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Dropping today's #22for22 a lil early today cuz I know y'all will be out celebrating #IndependenceDay?? with fam & friends... #Dying2Survive #Sade #Pearls #DyingToSurvive #HipHop #CancerSeason♋️ #Happy4thOfJuly
Today, Day 296 Jordan’s 23rd birth anniversary This morning I woke up got ready for my fake job... normal routine. I walked to my car & I was blocked in - simple enough for me to pull the truck in the garage and jump in my car but instead I have a full blown cuss fest tantrum... only to end up moving the car myself. I drove to work uneasy, angry... I got to work and I teared up although today is just another day it’s Jordan’s birthday and my mama isn’t here. We wouldn’t be doing anything special so that’s not the point... the point is she’s not fucking here anymore... ever. I want to talk to you Ma about the boy and our woes these pass few weeks... parenting is so hard and I just hope I never failed you. I get home I’m in a decent mood talked to my friend for over 2 hours... fall asleep. Bam, a dream... Ma, I heard a guy mention your maiden name and New Orleans so I told him your name and I asked him if he knew you... he did of course. He spoke highly of you and hugged me then the tears flowed... he said don’t cry your mom gave you instructions on how to live... but ma you didn’t. You never talked to me about my life after your death. Dorothy my soul burns for your presence. I miss you. I need you. I’m alone... it’s nothing absolutely nothing like a mother’s love. I can only hope my son realizes this before I close my eyes. All I do is for him... I’m his biggest fan and he doesn’t even know it. One thing is for sure I’m working on living my life to the fullest, doing whatever makes me happy. It’s the only thing I know for sure you would want... you always instructed us to do what made us happy even if it was a bad idea! ? You want the Benz buy it but ma my lease not up yet so get it, you want the purse buy it, you wanna go on vacation go, you wanna date him date him, whatever I wanted you encouraged me to do it.... I want you but I know that’s impossible and it’s clear from all the dreams “to live” so I’ll try to live each day as positive as I can doing things I enjoy no matter the obstacles & in spite of my heartbreak ? #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
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Today, Day 323 Darkness Ma, oh how I wish you were here. Our life is changing every day and unfortunately things aren’t getting better just worse. We are trying to stay positive, looking forward to the breakthrough. Yet, when it’s literally one thing after another it’s hard... it’s even harder without our rock. I’m so angry. Don’t question God, right.... yeah okay about that... Why? Why her? I have other no words for Him... I need more time!!! If only my tears could reach your ears... I just need more time. This shit is really real like you’re gone FOREVER. In a world full of light all I have is darkness... Time passes, pain becomes more & more unbearable. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 328 I don’t even know what to call today... maybe just existing. I washed my hair couldn’t find the blow dryer walked in the bedroom to look for it and saw your photo... I don’t remember sitting it there but there it was... you with a big ole smile & all I could think was she was happy. Happy always... you smiled even while facing adversities. This is something I’ll never master but hey I’m a Banks and smiling really isn’t our thing. Existing Existing Existing without you... I miss you mother ole so much. Why did He take you from us? If I could only get 5 more minutes... I can’t. Soooo... I put the picture in my wallet and here I am pushing through breakdown after breakdown crying in public but still I push... literally dying to survive. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 330 Facebook My page is not active but everyday I take time out to activate and deactivate like an idiot to see if there are any references of my mother in the memories... I can say I miss my mama a 1001 times a day and it still won’t be enough times to explain how much I really miss her. The behind my back talkers would always say I posted too much or that famous line everything isn’t for social media well in my case I’m glad I did. I was so upset when my mom died I broke my phone losing years of photos, text messages, and voicemails. Thankfully my post post post motto was in place because it saved a ton of memories for me... I impatiently wait for midnight to see my on this day... it saddens me all I have is memories, I want to make more memories... I tell Kaylee all the time she’ll have a ton of “memories” when it’s my time... It’s unfortunate that that’s even a conversation, our reality ...death... and it’s no stopping it no matter how much it hurts. death is real memories fade #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
Today, Day 301 I am that chic It’s Sunday... beginning of the week, hardest day of the week, the day my mother passed. Today (as usual) I’m missing you tremendously. I can’t deal. I want to call you and ask you where did I go wrong... how do I fix it... I’m seriously close to catching a murder case and I keep telling myself nobody is worth that. The anger and frustration is at its maximum. I’m praying... I need something to change fast... I’m scared of where I’m heading and without your guidance I’m not the ticking time bomb I’m exploding. I keep busy to try not to think about all the things in my life that just are a mess... an idle mind an idle mind. All bad. My thoughts are all over the place from mama... my family... social media... 2 Thessalonians 3:10 if any man will not work, neither let him eat A word to the unwise You’re given all these tools to succeed, your failures are your own either you keep trying or you lay there dying a slow death... a future of regrets My thoughts are all over the place from mama... my family... social media... The funny thing about perception is although 95% of what I post is directly related to me I’m perceived as living a certain kind of lifestyle, like I’m happy and/or having fun... Don’t envy my pics... I’m busy. I’m blah. Blah Busy... far from happy. It’s always something behind the scenes and it’s not always as great as the photos look... people don’t post the negative. Social media is the fake life, the lies... me yeah no I’m very transparent but private at the same time... My emotions are up and down more than average person... my journal is not for attention it’s to let maybe even if only one person to know you’re not alone... life isn’t perfect but we overcome. I am that chic. You’re the chic. The overcoming, pushing through, taking it one day at a time on the road to happiness chic. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
周一围可太帅了❤️ #sunday#movie#dyingtosurvive#zhouyiwei
Just saw a movie about a man who smuggles medicine for people who have leukemia but sell it at cost price to give more patients a chance to live. So touching n finally have some faith in Chinese movie. #徐铮 #我不是药神 #dyingtosurvive
Today, Day 277 Hiatus My emotions were on level 8 today. I pulled myself together I mean it’s KDK Day... all I know is nothing seems to go right. Dinner ? Family time ?? aaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllll bad!!!! I know nothing is perfect but damn! Life... ups and downs - highs and lows. It seems like my family and I are stuck in the downs and lows, rock bottom. Haters are you happy? Congratulations! When you need your mother’s encouraging spirit but come up empty handed... time for a hiatus... I can’t deal. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
This is such a good movie everyone needs to watch this chinese film. Incredible film. Best chinese film this year. Most meaningful story.
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?Tonight, I enjoyed a new China film, 我不是药神(Dying to Survive / Drug Dealer)?. I love this film very much. It tells a story about the dramatically high price of an imported oncology drug together with a China drug dealer who tries all his best to find much cheaper drug with the same efficacy in India in an illegal way......for those poor oncology patients, specially patients with leukemia. . I love this story not only because it’s based on a true story but also all the actors and actresses contribute their best performance in the film. And I love the director’s characteristic way of film representation and narrative style. . BTW, this film was shot in China Shanghai and India. . . . #weekend #film #徐峥 #DyingtoSurvive #DrugDealer #audience #oncology #cancer #drug #actor #actress #phama #movie #theater #moviegoer #poster #happy #love #india #indian #director #medicine #healthcare #leukemia #patient
One of the best movies I've ever watched. #dyingtosurvive
满分? #film #movie #recommended
Great movie. Some kinda like Dallas Buyers Club but full of Chinese reality. #dyingtosurvive
Today, Day 325 ? nothing but tears... I miss her, him, us, me ? beware: mentally unstable #savagebeauty #unfuckwithable ?fuck you #dyingtosurvive
Today, Day 333 Summertime Beach... Pool... Sussex... Prest... Bubbles All things summer. All things Dorothy. Yesterday alllll day I couldn’t stop thinking about you. We went to the beach I gazed at families envious wondering asking God why you... I try not to do that but I do. Tiffani was focused on her kids & Kaylee wasn’t there so I didn’t have anything distractions. The pool is up in the backyard after all these years and you’re not here... sadness. Went by my Dad’s house and he reminded us of life span ages, pretty much saying he doesn’t have long to live. Seriously... Went by my cousin’s all I could think of was you... Memories Summertime my favorite time of year is my worst time of year. #thepublicjournal #motherlessdaughter #griefjourney #daughterofanangel grief, the love you have but can’t give...
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